Post by Cole on Apr 11, 2024 18:13:42 GMT -5
Probably gonna be my last post for a while.Because I don't need any more attention.I'm tired of it.
I don't know what happened just now but I was just trying to explain to him what he put me through and he really didn't even care. When you don't listen to the person you are with and you just go off on them and start yelling.It's like okay I have to leave now.
I am getting super tired of having to fight for every bit of respect that I actually deserve. I just feel like if you can't respect me.Then I won't be there. And if standing up for myself is borderline personality disorder.I just don't know what the hell? People just think they can walk all over me.And then , when they do and I stand up for myself then they act like I have a personality disorder or something stupid like that which doesn't even match up to what is actually going on.
If someone tells you their feelings and you treat them like crap over it they are gonna get upset and they are gonna get up and go. When someone is trying to reach out to you and explain themselves and you just yell at them and tell them they have a personality disorder that is not necessarily a good approach.But whatever I just have no energy to keep doing this.
In the beginning of this relationship it was really quite good and he gave me all kinds of attention but now he just ignores me half of the time and i'm just sitting here making dinner or doing dishes or whatever. ... Everything is more important.
Can't even have a set of clothes at his house or any of my belongings because he's just going to throw me out again.
Anyway I will disable this website and just keep personal paper records so that there's no reason to keep bothering me.
This is so sad. Even Douglas listened to me and let me finish what I needed to say.
I can't even communicate and have to pretend everything is pk because if I mention that I need to talk or that I am.sad or talk about anything personal then I get yelled at. For what? Because I show emotions.
No concern , no care, no empathy and he doesn't even care what he's put me or my family through. Damn I try to talk to.him about it and he just goes off.
I have no more answers. None
This time I just cried because he wouldn't even let me talk yo him, just left the room accusing me of BPD.
Okay 👌 why don't I have BPD when you're not around?
Just leave me alone. You don't care about me.
I don't know what happened just now but I was just trying to explain to him what he put me through and he really didn't even care. When you don't listen to the person you are with and you just go off on them and start yelling.It's like okay I have to leave now.
I am getting super tired of having to fight for every bit of respect that I actually deserve. I just feel like if you can't respect me.Then I won't be there. And if standing up for myself is borderline personality disorder.I just don't know what the hell? People just think they can walk all over me.And then , when they do and I stand up for myself then they act like I have a personality disorder or something stupid like that which doesn't even match up to what is actually going on.
If someone tells you their feelings and you treat them like crap over it they are gonna get upset and they are gonna get up and go. When someone is trying to reach out to you and explain themselves and you just yell at them and tell them they have a personality disorder that is not necessarily a good approach.But whatever I just have no energy to keep doing this.
In the beginning of this relationship it was really quite good and he gave me all kinds of attention but now he just ignores me half of the time and i'm just sitting here making dinner or doing dishes or whatever. ... Everything is more important.
Can't even have a set of clothes at his house or any of my belongings because he's just going to throw me out again.
Anyway I will disable this website and just keep personal paper records so that there's no reason to keep bothering me.
This is so sad. Even Douglas listened to me and let me finish what I needed to say.
I can't even communicate and have to pretend everything is pk because if I mention that I need to talk or that I am.sad or talk about anything personal then I get yelled at. For what? Because I show emotions.
No concern , no care, no empathy and he doesn't even care what he's put me or my family through. Damn I try to talk to.him about it and he just goes off.
I have no more answers. None
This time I just cried because he wouldn't even let me talk yo him, just left the room accusing me of BPD.
Okay 👌 why don't I have BPD when you're not around?
Just leave me alone. You don't care about me.