Post by Cole on Mar 31, 2024 13:46:40 GMT -5
My mother greeted me before church and told me that she was going to sit in her usual spot which is the fourth row from the front next to my Dad. I was unusually ten minutes early but that is because I did not have children to get ready for church.
Many people greeted me and told me happy easter but I don't believe in easter because it is a pagan holiday. I don't believe that is the day Christ was risen but I do like to celebrate Christ.
A lady ask me if I'd like to sit down next to her and I said yes and she asked if she needed to move because I had a big family and I said no they were not with me. I had a small tear in my eye as I thought about the beautiful children but I did not try to discuss too much about it.
I sat there in hopes that they would come, but they didn't and thought that if they had I would sit with them but they did not come. I should have known they were not because of the comments he had made prior to my departure. As he yelled at me that we were "done", simply because we had a disagreement and I'd stood up for myself. It was fine.It was sad and he was a dismissive of any of my thoughts or feelings and even though I tried to express them he didn't care.
There is no sense in talking to someone when you are the only one talking and they are not even listening to you.
He had told me to read Timothy from the Bible. So I read the whole chapter right there in front of him and it talked about how women need to be submissive, but it also talked about how men need to treat their women and if a man does not treat a woman with respect then he doesn't get a submissive woman. I tried to point that out to him but he didn't listen. When I started to read Ephesians to him he walked away. So I turned the Bible to the verse that I actually wanted him to hear which is in Ephesians 5 23-30 . I follow back to him and read him just that's part about men having to respect their women and treat them well. Then I stopped and left it there.
"What does that even mean? Do you know?"
"It means that your woman will want to respect you if you do those things , and she doesn't have to if you don't." I weakly tried to explain.
I could See that this was going nowhere and he didn't care what I said and he didn't care what the word of God said he just wanted to use it for his own gain but didn't want to listen to the word at all. Nor did he really care what it said at all.
After that, he got up and walked out of the room and dismissed me as if I were nothing.
"Okay, if you are going to treat like I am nothing I will act like I am nothing and you will see my departure because you don't care about me at all. Nor do you care about my feelings. " I thought, and stopped engaging in the one sided communication.
When someone treats you like they have to control your feelings and that you cannot have a single thought without them telling you whether it is right or whether it is wrong that is not love it is control. When someone tells you what to think and how to think and how you should go along with their grandmaster plan of nonsense that is not reality. If a man is not following the word of God then you do not have to listen to him.
I have found that most men who are abusive have used the line that a woman must submit to a man from the Bible so that they can continue to abuse fer mentally or emotionally.Well, that is not true.You do not have to submit to a man who is toxic. God does not want you to be unhappy.Nor does he want you to be abused.You do not submit to someone unless they are treating you very well.And it does say that in the bible.
Unfortunately, when you try to explain that to someone who is acting toxic they don't listen to you anyways.So there is no point in continuing to try to communicate with someone, especially when I have an 88% reading level and I have no problem telling someone how I feel.
I felt very sad that they didn't come and I feel very sad that the children will have me in their memory for later, and we won't be able to talk or see one another and it makes me upset but what can I do ? I cannot control the way their father thinks or acts or how he treats me. I can control how I feel, how I react and I am not going to be mentally, emotionally or physically abused lied to or about and or made to feel crazy for not going along with nonsense.
When I set a boundary, I absolutely mean it and the more you try to push against that boundary, the less I will care about you because you do not care about me if you are pushing against my boundary. I do not expect to be manipulated into a friendship or anything else that I don't want to partake in. I have the ability to make my own decisions and I know that that friendship was not a healthy one.
II do not make friends with people who boast about themselves and talk about other people and talk about everyone in the world.Because then they will be talking about me and they probably are talking about me and I am not freaking stupid. If you want to continue to talk about me, you go ahead and do that.I don't have to partake in that and i'm not going to.
No one gets to tell me how I should feel.Or how I will feel or whether or not my feelings are valid because all of my feelings are valid and I don't need someone else's validation to make sure that I know whether or not I am able to find out how I feel. I am very
Many people greeted me and told me happy easter but I don't believe in easter because it is a pagan holiday. I don't believe that is the day Christ was risen but I do like to celebrate Christ.
A lady ask me if I'd like to sit down next to her and I said yes and she asked if she needed to move because I had a big family and I said no they were not with me. I had a small tear in my eye as I thought about the beautiful children but I did not try to discuss too much about it.
I sat there in hopes that they would come, but they didn't and thought that if they had I would sit with them but they did not come. I should have known they were not because of the comments he had made prior to my departure. As he yelled at me that we were "done", simply because we had a disagreement and I'd stood up for myself. It was fine.It was sad and he was a dismissive of any of my thoughts or feelings and even though I tried to express them he didn't care.
There is no sense in talking to someone when you are the only one talking and they are not even listening to you.
He had told me to read Timothy from the Bible. So I read the whole chapter right there in front of him and it talked about how women need to be submissive, but it also talked about how men need to treat their women and if a man does not treat a woman with respect then he doesn't get a submissive woman. I tried to point that out to him but he didn't listen. When I started to read Ephesians to him he walked away. So I turned the Bible to the verse that I actually wanted him to hear which is in Ephesians 5 23-30 . I follow back to him and read him just that's part about men having to respect their women and treat them well. Then I stopped and left it there.
"What does that even mean? Do you know?"
"It means that your woman will want to respect you if you do those things , and she doesn't have to if you don't." I weakly tried to explain.
I could See that this was going nowhere and he didn't care what I said and he didn't care what the word of God said he just wanted to use it for his own gain but didn't want to listen to the word at all. Nor did he really care what it said at all.
After that, he got up and walked out of the room and dismissed me as if I were nothing.
"Okay, if you are going to treat like I am nothing I will act like I am nothing and you will see my departure because you don't care about me at all. Nor do you care about my feelings. " I thought, and stopped engaging in the one sided communication.
When someone treats you like they have to control your feelings and that you cannot have a single thought without them telling you whether it is right or whether it is wrong that is not love it is control. When someone tells you what to think and how to think and how you should go along with their grandmaster plan of nonsense that is not reality. If a man is not following the word of God then you do not have to listen to him.
I have found that most men who are abusive have used the line that a woman must submit to a man from the Bible so that they can continue to abuse fer mentally or emotionally.Well, that is not true.You do not have to submit to a man who is toxic. God does not want you to be unhappy.Nor does he want you to be abused.You do not submit to someone unless they are treating you very well.And it does say that in the bible.
Unfortunately, when you try to explain that to someone who is acting toxic they don't listen to you anyways.So there is no point in continuing to try to communicate with someone, especially when I have an 88% reading level and I have no problem telling someone how I feel.
I felt very sad that they didn't come and I feel very sad that the children will have me in their memory for later, and we won't be able to talk or see one another and it makes me upset but what can I do ? I cannot control the way their father thinks or acts or how he treats me. I can control how I feel, how I react and I am not going to be mentally, emotionally or physically abused lied to or about and or made to feel crazy for not going along with nonsense.
When I set a boundary, I absolutely mean it and the more you try to push against that boundary, the less I will care about you because you do not care about me if you are pushing against my boundary. I do not expect to be manipulated into a friendship or anything else that I don't want to partake in. I have the ability to make my own decisions and I know that that friendship was not a healthy one.
II do not make friends with people who boast about themselves and talk about other people and talk about everyone in the world.Because then they will be talking about me and they probably are talking about me and I am not freaking stupid. If you want to continue to talk about me, you go ahead and do that.I don't have to partake in that and i'm not going to.
No one gets to tell me how I should feel.Or how I will feel or whether or not my feelings are valid because all of my feelings are valid and I don't need someone else's validation to make sure that I know whether or not I am able to find out how I feel. I am very
capable of knowing whether or not someone is good for me in my life or not and I don't need someone else to confirm that because I am my own being sovereign. When you figure out that no one is here for you to control their thoughts.Then you will start to grow up a little bit. My father died and you are not him and you never will be.