Post by Nicole on Mar 17, 2024 18:20:51 GMT -5
You can love someone and not like what they do. They will let you be with them and do things for them and still stab you in the face when you do all that you can for them. Well this life is not about being overpowered. It is not about serving others. It is not about being controlled and manipulate or being treated lesser than someone else. I got together with him because I thought he was brilliant and still think that. His soft skin at night has kept me warm and loved. His manner made me feel like we could accomplish anything, and we have accomplished alot that I thought was impossible. However my husband is not in love with me. He is in love with the neighbor and Im tired. I don't do well with competition and especially being forced to be friends with someone that I never asked for in my life. Tgey can sit on the front porch and get stoned and talk about me that's fine. I give so much and all I ever asked for was his time and attention while I am around and Nottoway have to hear about this asshole. Apparently it's to much to ask to not to have to hear about this asshole and I am selfish because I see my husband worshipping the feet of a man who does very little to deserve it. The man sits and boasts about himself and his life and talks crap about people even having talked crap about my husband. I wonder why my husband values this asshole so much that he chucks his newlywed wife out of the house simply because he loves the dude so much. Then I think about my screwed up life. I think about the good and bad times and the people who have taught me so much. I think about all of these things and how sad I am that after all I do, and am willing to do that I am not nor ever will be enough and that he would toss me to the curb just for a whiff of this dudes testosterone.
Lord HELP!
Lord HELP!