Post by Cole on Nov 4, 2023 5:01:41 GMT -5
"Affirmation comes from yourself." I stated plainly and clearly in the prayer meet on Thursday.
I am doing well and fine. These are just bumps in the road of life. The road that I keep trying to change or have for myself the wants and desires or needs that clearly only matter when I feel inadequate but am not.
They build you up and they tear you down. Then they build you up, then they tear you down. But each time they tear you down, it is worse than the last time.
Well there is a saying that if you fool me once shame on you, but if you fool me twice shame on me.
So shame on me for giving second chances when all the signs and red flags are in front of me and I believe your words not paying attention to actions. I've been foolish all of my life but someday I hope that will change.
You go on hurting others but proclaim you want peace. Peace comes from within, not from crap you want to stir because you are bored.
You think I'm crying in my bed for 3 days but really I'm doing the leaves and digging the artichokes for a nice warm cup of soup that you cannot nor will ever know how to provide. It is a shame that when God sends you a blessing you ignore it and those that ignore God's blessings. Their prayers are not heard or answered. They are the choices we make in life which determines the final outcome of our existence and I have no say over what happens to someone who spits in my face for literally no reason. Pack up the things that you hold dear because none of them are myself nor were they ever. No you don't love me nor had you ever. You are just like the rest of them who pretend to love me to simply gain temporary favors to use me for my giving and forgiving heart.
Not a savior at all, or a shining knight. Only someone who lied about loving me and future faked until I called your bluff. No don't apologize and lie about how you loved me or proclaim you love me when you don't. Love is kind and patient and holds no record of wrongs. It doesn't envy, does not boastvand is not proud. Learn that.
I am doing well and fine. These are just bumps in the road of life. The road that I keep trying to change or have for myself the wants and desires or needs that clearly only matter when I feel inadequate but am not.
They build you up and they tear you down. Then they build you up, then they tear you down. But each time they tear you down, it is worse than the last time.
Well there is a saying that if you fool me once shame on you, but if you fool me twice shame on me.
So shame on me for giving second chances when all the signs and red flags are in front of me and I believe your words not paying attention to actions. I've been foolish all of my life but someday I hope that will change.
You go on hurting others but proclaim you want peace. Peace comes from within, not from crap you want to stir because you are bored.
You think I'm crying in my bed for 3 days but really I'm doing the leaves and digging the artichokes for a nice warm cup of soup that you cannot nor will ever know how to provide. It is a shame that when God sends you a blessing you ignore it and those that ignore God's blessings. Their prayers are not heard or answered. They are the choices we make in life which determines the final outcome of our existence and I have no say over what happens to someone who spits in my face for literally no reason. Pack up the things that you hold dear because none of them are myself nor were they ever. No you don't love me nor had you ever. You are just like the rest of them who pretend to love me to simply gain temporary favors to use me for my giving and forgiving heart.
Not a savior at all, or a shining knight. Only someone who lied about loving me and future faked until I called your bluff. No don't apologize and lie about how you loved me or proclaim you love me when you don't. Love is kind and patient and holds no record of wrongs. It doesn't envy, does not boastvand is not proud. Learn that.