Post by Leels on Jul 23, 2020 11:34:06 GMT -5
Dear Journal,
June 11, 2018
Nathan came over last night and no one was home except for Paul and me. I could have walked him through the front door if he'd been comfortable with it. He brought me 6 different hot pockets and 12 canned Mountain Dews. We had a lot of sex, but we also bonded a bit. He talked to me about something along the lines of, "Here's your dicks, sir." and that reminded me of the Cyanide & Happiness clip, "Le Telepathe." He tried to get in a deep conversation with me about death and about how, "fear of the unknown" drives people to continue living. I wasn't ready to have this conversation with anyone because it nearly set off my fear of dying. Glad the video popped up before we continued. He muttered, "You don't wanna discuss this because you know I'm right." Well - yes and no. I told him, "No, I really wanna show you this." He laughed every time the waitor rudely said the word, "dicks." Tinkerbell immediately ran downstairs to meet Nathan and it was as if they fell in love. Nathan has usually shown a dislike towards my animals, but he LOVED Tinkie. He said that if I ever feel like getting rid of a dog, he'll take her.
I had a horrid dream last night about the birth control. In the dream, my dad read the bill that the insurance company got. It read, "Planned Parenthood." He stood in the clinic, waiting for me. He told me, when he saw me, that I'm a baby killer and that I'm a disgrace to the family. I almost fought Mandy and tried to explain to her that I'm just not responsible enough to have a kid right now. Speaking of which, when I went today, they were very non-judgmental and, in fact, kind. All they did was ask me a few questions about my health, wrote me a prescription and I was out of there within an hour. #WeWontGoBack
June 11, 2018
"I never trust a narcissist, but they love me... For every lie I tell them, they tell me three." ~T. Swift
I had a horrid dream last night about the birth control. In the dream, my dad read the bill that the insurance company got. It read, "Planned Parenthood." He stood in the clinic, waiting for me. He told me, when he saw me, that I'm a baby killer and that I'm a disgrace to the family. I almost fought Mandy and tried to explain to her that I'm just not responsible enough to have a kid right now. Speaking of which, when I went today, they were very non-judgmental and, in fact, kind. All they did was ask me a few questions about my health, wrote me a prescription and I was out of there within an hour. #WeWontGoBack