Post by Leels on May 14, 2020 20:30:13 GMT -5
Dear Journal,
May 14, 2020
I can't believe I slept through the entire fucking day today. I woke up around 11AM, went to PetSmart to buy a cat carrier, came home and got Naomi and Mr. PoPo and went back to get him fitted for a harness. He's been just yeeting out the door lately and he hasn't even been running away when I tell him he has to be inside. He's just been vibing in our front yard with me. So, with Nathan's advice and my thoughts of doing it that were pending, I got him an extra small dog harness. It's a wee too big for him, so I also got a regular collar so that I can tie the two together. He was big mad to be shoved in a box to get there though lol.
Moving on, that sleep was the most epic sleep I've had in a long time. It's nice to be unemployed during the pandemic. I've been making around $800/wk and therefore am finally able to pay for the things I absolutely needed for a long time but just didn't have the funds for. I fixed Sushi and since I've also finally gotten my stimulus check, I'm fixing Maya and Lazuli in the same appointment on the 20th. I told Mom that if the pandemic goes on much longer and I'm still being paid asshole money, I'm going to buy that wooden fence we always wanted so that the police can stop looking in our yard. Right now, I'm making twice as much as her for sitting on my ass.
While I was asleep, my brain made a really nice fanfic about Zach and me. Maybe that's why I didn't wake up until 8PM lol. In the dream, we were 16 year olds again. Mom would take Michael, Naomi and I to her friend's house and this woman had red curly hair, she was chubby and short and she had a "I'm the boss" attitude. For some reason, every time I went over to her house, I had to shower. I never had any spare clothes and they'd always have a spare pair of pants for me but I had to look for a shirt every time and I'd need her help because the house closet was always locked. My brother and sister would play with the younger siblings at her house. They also had a kindergartner that was always being put down for a nap in the master bedroom when we came over. I can't even recall their names because I was so focused on Zach.
Zach was the next door neighbor and I was always so excited when he would come over. He was a responsible kid and always asked the woman if she needed help with anything. He didn't come over for me, he came over to help her because she had so many munchkins around. He would do stuff like wash the dishes for her, start campfires at night and sometimes he'd cook some not-so-elegant food for the kids. He got paid for it, of course. So, he always had some money on him. We grew close as he came over all the time and I was really glad I was gaining friendship with the hottest guy on the planet.
I remember in the dream, we'd take a lot of trips to the Dollar Tree (the woman, her kids and my family) and we'd all be given money that was age appropriate. Zach came in one day and I was spending some of my money on the twins because they wasted it all on crap and I sarcastically was complaining how they were "wasting all my money" and were a "burden to society." Zach overheard this while he was walking into the store over to our aisle. I had had $11 in my hand and was waving it around because I had nowhere to put it. He came up to me and said, "Looks like to me you have plenty of green there, but not to fear, I came here to give you some more." He handed me another $10 bill. I was stunned.
At one point in the dream, there was a time skip where Zach and I were older now and had already worked at West Michigan Molding together and he'd moved and all that. He would periodically come to visit the woman's house and our family never stopped visiting her's either. One day, I was told he'd flown in from [insert some southern state here] and was coming to visit. I was so happy. I hadn't seen him in years. In the dream, I had still chosen to be with Nathan and we were in the relationship we are in real life. I saw Zach mostly as a friend and wouldn't want to cheat on Nathan ever.
I was outside, at peace with myself when I saw Zach pull up into the dirt driveway in the backyard. He hopped out of his old beat up Ford (not sure how he carried that on an airplane), saw me and walked towards me. He sat with me and started a fire in the side yard like we always used to and we started chatting. The rest of the people in the house soon came out to say hello and spend time with him. At around midnight, he decided he needed to get going so that he could make it to the airport on time. He got up and I said, "Am I at least allowed to have a hug this time? I never got one the last time you left." I took off my jacket because it was dirty as hell and he said, "You were always allowed to have a hug, you just never took one." I wrapped my arms around him and he, me. He's so tall that I was engulfed in his chest and he was bent over me like a tree. I felt his heart race against my ear for 20 seconds of glory and then let loose. Before I let go, I spoke in a low voice, "Thank you for being the best friend I've ever had. I gave him a thankful (not romantic) kiss on the jawbone. He freaked out and I just said, "That's not what I meant. Calm down." We released and I looked into his eyes with a grateful stare and watched him leave in such perfection. What a wonderful dream.
May 14, 2020
I can't believe I slept through the entire fucking day today. I woke up around 11AM, went to PetSmart to buy a cat carrier, came home and got Naomi and Mr. PoPo and went back to get him fitted for a harness. He's been just yeeting out the door lately and he hasn't even been running away when I tell him he has to be inside. He's just been vibing in our front yard with me. So, with Nathan's advice and my thoughts of doing it that were pending, I got him an extra small dog harness. It's a wee too big for him, so I also got a regular collar so that I can tie the two together. He was big mad to be shoved in a box to get there though lol.
Moving on, that sleep was the most epic sleep I've had in a long time. It's nice to be unemployed during the pandemic. I've been making around $800/wk and therefore am finally able to pay for the things I absolutely needed for a long time but just didn't have the funds for. I fixed Sushi and since I've also finally gotten my stimulus check, I'm fixing Maya and Lazuli in the same appointment on the 20th. I told Mom that if the pandemic goes on much longer and I'm still being paid asshole money, I'm going to buy that wooden fence we always wanted so that the police can stop looking in our yard. Right now, I'm making twice as much as her for sitting on my ass.
While I was asleep, my brain made a really nice fanfic about Zach and me. Maybe that's why I didn't wake up until 8PM lol. In the dream, we were 16 year olds again. Mom would take Michael, Naomi and I to her friend's house and this woman had red curly hair, she was chubby and short and she had a "I'm the boss" attitude. For some reason, every time I went over to her house, I had to shower. I never had any spare clothes and they'd always have a spare pair of pants for me but I had to look for a shirt every time and I'd need her help because the house closet was always locked. My brother and sister would play with the younger siblings at her house. They also had a kindergartner that was always being put down for a nap in the master bedroom when we came over. I can't even recall their names because I was so focused on Zach.
Zach was the next door neighbor and I was always so excited when he would come over. He was a responsible kid and always asked the woman if she needed help with anything. He didn't come over for me, he came over to help her because she had so many munchkins around. He would do stuff like wash the dishes for her, start campfires at night and sometimes he'd cook some not-so-elegant food for the kids. He got paid for it, of course. So, he always had some money on him. We grew close as he came over all the time and I was really glad I was gaining friendship with the hottest guy on the planet.
I remember in the dream, we'd take a lot of trips to the Dollar Tree (the woman, her kids and my family) and we'd all be given money that was age appropriate. Zach came in one day and I was spending some of my money on the twins because they wasted it all on crap and I sarcastically was complaining how they were "wasting all my money" and were a "burden to society." Zach overheard this while he was walking into the store over to our aisle. I had had $11 in my hand and was waving it around because I had nowhere to put it. He came up to me and said, "Looks like to me you have plenty of green there, but not to fear, I came here to give you some more." He handed me another $10 bill. I was stunned.
At one point in the dream, there was a time skip where Zach and I were older now and had already worked at West Michigan Molding together and he'd moved and all that. He would periodically come to visit the woman's house and our family never stopped visiting her's either. One day, I was told he'd flown in from [insert some southern state here] and was coming to visit. I was so happy. I hadn't seen him in years. In the dream, I had still chosen to be with Nathan and we were in the relationship we are in real life. I saw Zach mostly as a friend and wouldn't want to cheat on Nathan ever.
I was outside, at peace with myself when I saw Zach pull up into the dirt driveway in the backyard. He hopped out of his old beat up Ford (not sure how he carried that on an airplane), saw me and walked towards me. He sat with me and started a fire in the side yard like we always used to and we started chatting. The rest of the people in the house soon came out to say hello and spend time with him. At around midnight, he decided he needed to get going so that he could make it to the airport on time. He got up and I said, "Am I at least allowed to have a hug this time? I never got one the last time you left." I took off my jacket because it was dirty as hell and he said, "You were always allowed to have a hug, you just never took one." I wrapped my arms around him and he, me. He's so tall that I was engulfed in his chest and he was bent over me like a tree. I felt his heart race against my ear for 20 seconds of glory and then let loose. Before I let go, I spoke in a low voice, "Thank you for being the best friend I've ever had. I gave him a thankful (not romantic) kiss on the jawbone. He freaked out and I just said, "That's not what I meant. Calm down." We released and I looked into his eyes with a grateful stare and watched him leave in such perfection. What a wonderful dream.