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Post by Nicole on Feb 14, 2007 4:57:33 GMT -5
Dear Carol Heh I am glad to hear from you again. I am in a better mood now today because of it. I am glad that you are writing me. Not much has gone on since the last time I wrote to you. I went to D's mother's house for the weekend and we spent some time there. I am doing a bit better and feeling more like my old self again. I would have missed getting your letters if you were really offline. I did write my ex husband and ask him to come help you but he said he was to busy. He is the only one that I know that could help. He is being a bit more nice to me. Nope won't be getting back together with him though. I prefer being on my own. Atleast I can treat myself good. This guy I came over to England to be with. He doesn't like me enough to marry me so I think I am going to come back to the USA and drive truck. I know you said that it is a harsh world out there truck driving but I don't care. I am a tough girl and I will be allright. The money is way to good to say no. I'd like to have some things in my life for a change. I dont' like the idea of living with my mother. I have been on my own for a long time and I don't want to live with my mother when I do come back. I was staying with my sister but she went and had a fit for some reason and asked me to leave (she's not right upstairs). So when I go back I have to stay with my mother again. I don't want to be there but atleast I will have a roof over my head. I miss you Carol, and I love ya. I hope that your day is good and that peace is with you. Sincerily, Nicole
"chevylynn@" <chevylynn@> wrote: Hi how are ya doing? I got the computer working. I restored it back to Feb 3rd and now it`s working Yea!!! So when are ya coming home? And how did you get there? We have had real bad weather here very cold. Is it cold where you are and snow??? I hope you have a very nice valentines day I am going to make a heart cake for my valentines day sounds good to me. Write let me know, so I know you will have a valentines good day. I got to go do wash and dishes yek. Write LOV YA Carol
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Post by Nicole on Feb 16, 2007 15:23:40 GMT -5
Dear Carol Everything is going okay here. I am not in the best of moods right now though. I went out and checked out two towns all day long. Went to alot of shops but didn't buy anything much. Came back and was looking forward to dinner but got disturbed in the kitchen so I decided I do not really want dinner. I hate it when people disturb me while I am cooking. I was going to look for some things to send to my kids today and I found something but I didn't know where the post office was so I postponed buying it until a later date. Not much really is going on. Just miss Michigan and wish I were back there. I am glad I came here (believe it or not) but only becuase it answered alot of questions that I have regarding my current relationship that I have been in with D. God has a way of making things 'show' clearly with respect to seeing people for who they really are. For example, I know now who my friends actually are. Who actually loves me and cares about me and who is just pulling my chain ect.. ect.. Most of the times I get confused on these issues. I was talking about Mike Nelson today with my friend Rm on the way into Redford and I told her about you also and how we are friends only pretty much because of him. I am going to tend his grave shortly after I come back. I do not know if you have been there yet but if you see coins on his grave please don't take them off. I put them on there because it is a family tradition. I miss him alot. I don't know what will happen to me when I come back but yes I will be staying in Grand Haven (not muskegon). I don't have alot of money and I am still thinking of doing the truck driving thing but I don't like the idea that I will be sitting on my ass with no way to excersise. Its no big deal though because I am not going to be entertaining any men or anything like that. Not that I am really interested to much in doing so. This day and age all men give a shit about are pussy and getting pussy. I have really had enough of it to be quite honest with you. I don't care if I ever have sex again in my life. Its getting to that point. I am just getting really tired of the dating crap. Sorry for bitching about it so much, but again I am having a bad day. Maybe if you need help with the house when I come back I can help you. I do not know what else I will do while I am waiting to go be a truck driver. Miss you, love you, *hugs* Nicole
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Post by Nicole on Feb 17, 2007 8:25:56 GMT -5
Dear Carol That is not true. You do not have 'no one'. I will always be there for you. I will. You can always email me. I will make sure I keep in touch. I will stop by too. I would even come help you when I get back. I realise that I have all these 'big dreams' about being a truck driver and being on my own and everything else, but the truth is that I just want some peace. I don't have anyone either. Not anyone that gives enough of a crap about me. I don't even want to go stay with my mother but I have no where else to go. If you get to the point where you can not take care of yourself I will be there to help you when I can. If other arrangements can't be made then I will come stay with you. You do not have no one. You have me. I have alot left to do in my life, but I am not going to just forget about you. I can't really say that I would ever want to see you in a nursing home or anything else like that. I am certified to care for people and I will try very hard to be there for you. If I can't then I will try to get someone that I know who can. I care about you alot. You are my best friends, best friend lol. It will only take me a year to get my truck driving licence and after that if something goes wrong with you I will make sure that you get taken care of. I don't want to see you have no one. I don't think that would be right. I really need the degree though because if I don't get it I will have no means to make a sensible income. After I get it then I will plan on taking time off. Maybe I will go on a trip or something and keep working after that but I will stay in touch with you. I will. Do not worry. I consider you a pretty important person to me. There is a reason why Nelson put us together as friends. I remember the first time he told me about you. I wished I was you because you knew him so much longer than me. He told me that he had aids also but I never discussed it with anyone that he knew. I talked to my family about it in the aftermath. I did alot of aids research and I went on aids walks all because of him. Not that he knew that I did because he didn't. I didn't credit myself with telling him that I did. I just did it because I needed to do it for me. Well I hope to speak to you soon, Maybe next time I make a holiday turkey we can do it together at your house. Love Nicole
FROM CAROL So it looks like you are in a bad mood, me to I just added all my credit cards up and it comes to almost 17,000 bucks. Boy! I need a job in the worst way, but no one is hiring. They don`t want old people, and I ready don`t want one. I like not working. But I hate to think of job hunting and not getting anything that pays anything. And doing three or four peoples jobs at once. I am not as fast as I use to be. Wished I could find something easy on the computer to do to make money. Yes I have been to Mikes grave last year before the snow. I miss him too, he was a smart guy but he didn`t want to get marryed either. But don`t blame him, after all I was 13 years older than him, but he said that that wasn`t it. He wanted to do away with him self he has for many years. He use to cut his armes, then try to fuse them back together with a solder gun. That must have hurt. But he was not happy he drank alot he was on drugs, this was when he was younger in his early 20`s. He gave his mom and dad alot of trouble too. But I seen passed that I guess. He was a nice guy but he didn`t think that. But, I babied him along for 25 years, and then out of the blue he did it, and I wasn`t there to talk him out of it. He acted very happy when I talked to him the day of. Said he was real busy cleaning and packing. What puzzels me is he brough over a truck full of boxes and when I wasn`t home he went up stairs at my house and took them back to his mom`s, so I didn`t know this until he did him self in and I went upstairs to get something and noticed those boxes were gone, that puzzels me. Don`t now why he did that. Every where I look at my house Mike has fixed it and now he is gone and I have no one. He told me he had aids, I knew it for along time, but he never got sick, so I think the health department was wrong on that. He was even donning plasma and that is weired, because why would they let him do that if he had it??? Guess I just don`t understand that one. He was in very good health too. Well, I guess I better close for now, I have to get ready to go have fish down to the Lakeside Eagles white fish all you can eat and I haven`t been anywhere for two weeks. So I`ll write again you too Love ya Carol
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Post by Nicole on Feb 22, 2007 4:51:39 GMT -5
Dear Carol
Hah I am staying in today because there is nothing to do. I have been here two months now and I am bored. Yesterday I went to a big church in Southwell. It was very pretty to look at. It is a shame that they have not recreated some of the sculptures that they had into the walls and such.
I walked all day long yesterday and I am not going to be walking all day long today. I had problems at the bus station with the manager not allowing me to use the toilet. So today I am going to try to find out who to complain to about it because that is just stupid. This country doesn't have enough toilets.
There are also no mexican resteraunts.
I finally found some bratworst though. It took a long time to find that. Their sausages here are generatlly shitty so I had to get some from Germany haha.
If you ever want to get out of town when I get my truck driving licence going then I will be more than happy to take you anywhere as long as it is on my route. It is nice that we are able to have riders.
D works as a computer programmer. He has been doing this for quite a while now. He makes good money I think. I don't need a job. I have a return ticket to come home. I didn't leave and not buy a return ticket lol. I'm not that dumb lol.
I do not think I want to get married again. I don't really discuss what goes on in my relationship alot with people because I think it is disrespectful to the other party. I just don't like it when it happens to me.
There are just differances that can not be mended and there is alot of things that have been said and done on both sides that really can't be brought to terms with.
I have to come home and make something of myself. This would be to compensate for dealing with men all of my past.
I have decided what I want to do with my life. I won't discuss it though until after I get the job as a truck driver. That way I am not putting to much into one thing in hopes for the good sense that life might get better.
I miss Michigan. I miss the big woods and I want to start a big campfire out in them when I get home.
Love You,
Love Me
"chevylynn@" <chevylynn@> wrote:
Hi, well I wouldn`t feel to bad, I wouldn`t marry someone over there anyway because if you have kids they have to stay and can`t come to the US because the hubby won`t let them so be good and don`t have any. A girl years ago use to work at Meijers and that happened to her. She had two kids and her hubby wouldn`t let her leave with the kids, besides they usually have a couple wifes or more not good. So you can`t have a job over there huh? Thats the pits. How are you going to get home then with no money??? Is your friend paying to get you back? Maybe if you did get a job there and then they would send you back and you wouldn`t have to pay? HE HE LOL. Where does this Douglas work? Then you have to intertain yourself all the time when he is gone. I wouldn`t like that, how long have you been there anyway??? God lordy be I would be so bord I`d be screaming about now. Well, guess what we are having a heat wave 40 that is very nice sun is out too. And the snow is going bye bye goodie. I am sick of it. so goodie it can go really fast and it will not hurt me at all LOL. I would like to sell this house and go south where I don`t have to play in this white stuff. Well, got to go keep on writing LOVE Carol
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Post by Nicole on Feb 23, 2007 13:28:09 GMT -5
Dear Carol
I already do know enough about computers to know that I don't want to know any more about computers. I am not patient and I hate people most of the times. Espcially dumb ones that don't know what they are doing on the computer ... like my sister who screws up her computer every chance she gets. You tell her how not to get a virus and what do you know? She has one every other month.
I prefer to drive. It makes really good money. I also need some time alone after the divorce. I have been going through alot lately.
Really probably should be alone for a while since I have this viewpoint on men that stinks.
Possibly it has to do with the amount of men that always ask me for sex. Its repulsive.
I have lost alot of weight.
>>How did you meet this guy anyway, in the states? Was he on vacation or what? At least he has a good paying job. Is he a hunk, and good looking? Does he have an older brother my age? Single, if so bring him back with ya.<<
No his brother is married or has a girlfriend and I dont' think he is older. I can't remember.
I'd introduce you to my father, but my father is going to die soon.
He's been smoking to much and he doesn't take good care of himself. I don't even know if he can still have sex (not that I want to find out for sure).
I met him on a game that we both play on the internet. He came to the USA and for vacation and then he went back home.
I used to deliver alot of pizza's in Michigan for years and years and years. I think I would do okay driving truck for a while.
I would go to the gameshow with you. I have never seen the show before no. I don't watch alot of television, but i have been to New York about 8 times before and I love it there.
I don't have very many belongings after having the divorce. I have barely anything left. Its a shame.
I miss you Carol, Love You, (you can be my second mom, Paula, my dads wife died so she's gone *hugs*) Love Me
"chevylynn" <chevylynn> wrote:
Gee wzzz me I`ll campfire with ya, we can have a picnic. Why don`t you have d teach you all about the computer and then you would have a good job without driving. The roads were really bad in the winter this week-end it`s suppose to rain and freeze with snow on top of that. I don`t know about you but I sure woudn`t want to drive in the winter with a big rig that`s not for me. Yesterday and the day befoe was real nice 40, sun was out and much warmer. Have you lost any weight with all that walking? It keeps my sugar down and if I watch it I can losse too. How did you meet this guy anyway, in the states? Was he on vacation or what? At least he has a good paying job. Is he a hunk, and good looking? Does he have an older brother my age? Single, if so bring him back with ya. LOL I need some one to pay my bills for me LOL. sounds good anyway. Last year in Feb I had a dizzy spell at night when I got up to go to the bathroom. In November same thing ownly it lasted in the day right on voting day but went away then went to vote. Yesterday I had the same thing but not so bad it went away in a couple hours. Is that high blood presser amd cholesterol working together. I haven`t been able to go to the doc because the caseworker has to do it. She put me on it last year and then took me off because I got over a thousand dollars for two months, and I have asked her to put me back on and all I get from her is they are not taking people now. So I havent been back since I was taken off. I had kidney stones and they took care of that and I went to the doctor the last day that my insurance ended. nice huh dam bitch. She don`t care she has her job and insurnce. She knows I have sugar too. She is younger too don`t care. She wouldn`t help me with my roof either. That only leaks when the wind is just right, and raining hard. Can`t go anywhere because the truck is a gas eater. Coarst right now I have 6 bags of 70lbs of weight each. 420lbs is alot and wholes it down for winter. I don`t slide. We need to go to New York and get on Deal or no deal I think thats where they are. Make us some bucks, alot of bucks. Have you seen that show? Where did you put all your stuff when you went over to England? Well, answer all my question now and I`ll talk to ya later LOVE Carol second mom LOL Is that OK???
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