Post by Nicole on Apr 18, 2005 11:02:09 GMT -5
Dear Angela
I don't know if I am going to hear back from
you or
not because you never called me back. I will be
in
Grand Rapids tomarrow if you want to talk. I was
going
to call you tonight anyways but then I went into
major
bitch mode and didn't remember to. When I am
stressed
out I do not remember everything.
Incase I don't see you tomarrow I wanted to
tell
you. When I tell you I love you it means within
my
heart as a friend and I care very much for you.
It
doesn't mean that I want to get back with you and
that
we are going to be together because I want what
is
best for you and am so proud to see you doing
well. I
don't like hearing that you are having problems
but
what can I do.
Then I also wanted to tell you that you hurt
my
feelings very much when you told me that my
loving a
woman is not the same as you loving a woman. I am
not
less than you are. When I love a woman I give my
heart to the woman. I don't give any less of my
heart
to a woman than you give of yours to a woman.
Just
because I have a husband doesn't mean that I give
less
love and that I do not love them at the same
leveal as
I love my husband. I just happen to not be able
to
find someone that wants me with all the things
that I
have and all the things that I am within myself.
It made me feel like you were talking down to
me
when you said what you did about it not being the
same. I know you have your own problems right
now
Angela but you don't know how it is or is not the
same
when you are not bisexual. I don't understand how
you
know. When I was with you I was young and just
started
out at this. You were only like the third or
fourth
woman I had been with. I may be the same person
as you
knew before but my value system have changed
since we
hung out.
All I am saying is that I don't apreciate you
cutting me down for being who I am because I am
proud
of who I am. I do not want to be a lesbian and
when I
love someone it is just as much love as when you
love
someone. I love them deeply. I take care of them
and I
do for them. I always get stepped on because I
love so
much deep inside. I am not going to keep going on
about this but I just wanted you to know that it
hurt
my feelings.
Other than that I miss you and you are on my
mind.
I hope that things work out for you and your
girl, but
you need to realize that when you are with
someone it
is for better or for worse and worse is part of
it. It
is your decision as an adult to do what you need
to
do from there. I hope that if I do see you
tomarrow it
goes well and I miss you. Remember you own you.
Love Nicole
=====
TTYL
Nicole
I don't know if I am going to hear back from
you or
not because you never called me back. I will be
in
Grand Rapids tomarrow if you want to talk. I was
going
to call you tonight anyways but then I went into
major
bitch mode and didn't remember to. When I am
stressed
out I do not remember everything.
Incase I don't see you tomarrow I wanted to
tell
you. When I tell you I love you it means within
my
heart as a friend and I care very much for you.
It
doesn't mean that I want to get back with you and
that
we are going to be together because I want what
is
best for you and am so proud to see you doing
well. I
don't like hearing that you are having problems
but
what can I do.
Then I also wanted to tell you that you hurt
my
feelings very much when you told me that my
loving a
woman is not the same as you loving a woman. I am
not
less than you are. When I love a woman I give my
heart to the woman. I don't give any less of my
heart
to a woman than you give of yours to a woman.
Just
because I have a husband doesn't mean that I give
less
love and that I do not love them at the same
leveal as
I love my husband. I just happen to not be able
to
find someone that wants me with all the things
that I
have and all the things that I am within myself.
It made me feel like you were talking down to
me
when you said what you did about it not being the
same. I know you have your own problems right
now
Angela but you don't know how it is or is not the
same
when you are not bisexual. I don't understand how
you
know. When I was with you I was young and just
started
out at this. You were only like the third or
fourth
woman I had been with. I may be the same person
as you
knew before but my value system have changed
since we
hung out.
All I am saying is that I don't apreciate you
cutting me down for being who I am because I am
proud
of who I am. I do not want to be a lesbian and
when I
love someone it is just as much love as when you
love
someone. I love them deeply. I take care of them
and I
do for them. I always get stepped on because I
love so
much deep inside. I am not going to keep going on
about this but I just wanted you to know that it
hurt
my feelings.
Other than that I miss you and you are on my
mind.
I hope that things work out for you and your
girl, but
you need to realize that when you are with
someone it
is for better or for worse and worse is part of
it. It
is your decision as an adult to do what you need
to
do from there. I hope that if I do see you
tomarrow it
goes well and I miss you. Remember you own you.
Love Nicole
=====
TTYL
Nicole