Post by Nicole on Feb 27, 2005 9:31:13 GMT -5
I am happy that you wrote me. I have been doing good. I have a new outlet to use to
escape from reality *laughs*. So I don't always check my mail right away, but now that I have
more friends in my life I have been checking it more often.
I don't know if I've lost my mind or what, but I haven't really been with any women in a long time. I don't even look anymore.
When we last talked and I told you that I was going through something. What it was that I was going through was a pretty bad case of depression. I am just coming out of that right now, but am not sure when it will be done with. I try hard to remain active, but its not easy when my life isn't complete. Part of that has to do with being with a woman. The other part of it has to do with being me. Just finding myself again. Its difficult. I try very hard to live my life every day and not worry about finding a woman. Thinking that maybe sometime someone will come along that really does apreciate me for who I am, but the fact is that I don't believe that anymore. I have pretty much given up on all that. That is really hard for me. I feel like I have lost 10 years of my life to this and it will never be the same again. I know you don't need to hear any sappy shit stories of how depressed I am. That isn't really what this is for. I just wanted to explain a little more what I meant when I said I was going through something. I was just shutting down everything inside as far as emotions.
You may find this hillarios, or not, but I met a really nice guy from England and we have been talking online alot. To bad he doesn't live her *laughs*. Then again there isn't alot I can do with my given situation. Anyway he's been keeping me smiling alot.
I am waiting for the good weather to hit so that I can get out in the sunshine and stop sitting at my computer all the time.
I would like to see you before you leave, but I am sick right now. If you can give me an idea when you are leaving I would like to know ahead of time. I am unsure how long it will take to get rid of my cold. It is a sinus infection and ear infection in both ears. It sucks.
Make sure if you go to ann arbor you take my address with you
if you don't know it, it is
*****
I would like to hear from you again.
Love you,
love me
escape from reality *laughs*. So I don't always check my mail right away, but now that I have
more friends in my life I have been checking it more often.
I don't know if I've lost my mind or what, but I haven't really been with any women in a long time. I don't even look anymore.
When we last talked and I told you that I was going through something. What it was that I was going through was a pretty bad case of depression. I am just coming out of that right now, but am not sure when it will be done with. I try hard to remain active, but its not easy when my life isn't complete. Part of that has to do with being with a woman. The other part of it has to do with being me. Just finding myself again. Its difficult. I try very hard to live my life every day and not worry about finding a woman. Thinking that maybe sometime someone will come along that really does apreciate me for who I am, but the fact is that I don't believe that anymore. I have pretty much given up on all that. That is really hard for me. I feel like I have lost 10 years of my life to this and it will never be the same again. I know you don't need to hear any sappy shit stories of how depressed I am. That isn't really what this is for. I just wanted to explain a little more what I meant when I said I was going through something. I was just shutting down everything inside as far as emotions.
You may find this hillarios, or not, but I met a really nice guy from England and we have been talking online alot. To bad he doesn't live her *laughs*. Then again there isn't alot I can do with my given situation. Anyway he's been keeping me smiling alot.
I am waiting for the good weather to hit so that I can get out in the sunshine and stop sitting at my computer all the time.
I would like to see you before you leave, but I am sick right now. If you can give me an idea when you are leaving I would like to know ahead of time. I am unsure how long it will take to get rid of my cold. It is a sinus infection and ear infection in both ears. It sucks.
Make sure if you go to ann arbor you take my address with you
if you don't know it, it is
*****
I would like to hear from you again.
Love you,
love me