Post by Nicole on Nov 25, 2004 0:40:07 GMT -5
9-15-04
That guy at Papa John's, I think you mentioned his name to me before (Parker) but I don't recall knowing anyone from that name. I'd have to see a face. I think you told me that he said that he knew me.
Yeah I think I did mention his name to you before. He went on to work for the Apple Avenue Domino's store. His wife has twins too!
You know what, I totally forgot about you being bisexual Nicole. DUH! 50 lashes with a wet noodle on me LOL. Yup, the gay life can be a hard life to lead. You ALMOST have to live someplace like San Diego or some place like that where it is more widely accepted, or a gay community near by. It could just be Muskegon too. It just seems that everybody is so uptight here, and caught in their own little world and don't want to let new people in.
Well right now frankley I am caught up in my own little world and don't want to let new people in as well. I am just tired of failing I guess. I understand what you mean about being in another area. Someone just told me about these wonderful 'other' places in the world that I never knew existed. Erg I mean I never knew that it would be more accepted and easier to find someone as well.
There was one other time I was trying to look you up. Dan (Domino's) was telling me once that he was talking to you online. Some kind of club he found. He told me to try AOL keyword: Muskegon Clubs or something like that. I did the keyword search a couple times, but never found it. And needles to say I had lost your e-mail addresses you gave me. That was around the time you were telling me you had a web page.
Thats funny because around that time I shut down my first website and now I have a new Michigan website. It is registered for three more years and I am probally going to re register it because it is really doing well. I also work on webpages for people and if you do happen to go there you will find SO much information about me out.... not that you don't already know.... but just lots of stuff that has been going on and very creative things on there that I have written. Like I have a whole section dedicated to love letters. Sorry to say I wasn't thinking of you when I wrote them *grinz*. If you get bored sometime its miperson.com I also have another occupation I am not sure I want to tell you about because I am sure that you will laugh your ass off if you found out. Uhmmm I guess I can't hide it if you figure it out because it is on the webpage lol.
Not really too much to say about my life. Been living at home and taking care of my mother. She's had a triple bypass, stroke, etc, etc. Seems this past year she has been in and out of hospitals about 3 or 4 different occasions. Even back surgery, which only relieved her back for about 2 months.
Lots of times when you have someone who has a stroke and also heart problems their backs hurt even worse than before they had the problems. I am sure that even though it relieved the pain for 2 months only it is probally better off than it was. I don't mean to get you down by saying this Mike, but I have to say it anyways because I have a big mouth. Usually when people have those kinds of surguries it prolongs their lives but they never really do get better. I hope that your mom doesn't fall worse anytime soon but it sounds like you are beginning or are in the middle of a long road with her health problems. For example, things seem to get better for a while, then they get worse for a moment. Just when you think she is getting better again something else happens. Just hang in there!! Anything you need just let me know and I will be there for you. I really meant what I said about helping you take care of your mom if you need it. I really love working with people and would give that to any person I know because I love doing the job so much. I don't even care about the changing of breifs, or showers. I just like to know that I myself can help releave the burden and make someone feel at ease a little bit longer in their lives. I am not patting myself on the back by doing this. I just really life the feeling I get knowing that I am helping someone else. Its really not about money, or even about being able to say I am a great person. It is more about how I feel about myself for helping someone else out. I love to do it because I am sooooo full of knowledge. In the past 4 years I have taken care of around 170 people and probally about 60 of them during the last years of their lives. I really like being able to make someone more comfortable. I like being able to give them a sense of dignity. This is going to sound insaine, but when my grandmother was in the last few months of her life and was bed ridden it made me feel proud to be able to bathe her. It wasn't a job. It was something I wanted to do to make her feel more comfortable. I felt honored when she allowed me to do this. I felt honored also because I knew that she was getting the best care. I think that is what it is all about. When you love someone and care for them that much you want them to recieve the best care. I know that when I care for someone they are recieving the best care because I try my darndest to think of everything. I am leary of nursing homes because I worked in one in the past. The people that live in nursing homes are often treated as if they were cattle. They are put down for about 12 hours a day in bed and sometimes longer. Lots of times they are ignored or put off. I would never want to see that happen to your mother. If she is your mother, then she must be a great woman.
One thing you never did mention in your letter is how Rick is doing. Are you still talking to him? I just wondered. If you are talking to him still tell him I said howdy *grinz*
Every year for all these years I have put a christmas ornament on my tree with your name on it. I made it years ago. Needless to say I think last year it got broken by the twins. I am going to make new names again and put them on the tree. The names are for the people that mean the most to me in my life.
You made an impression on me because you were a hard working, honest man. You were funny and we had alot of fun times.
Speaking of work, I still have your name tag *laughs*
Well I had alot more to tell you but I will save it for later because I am really tired from working 3rd shift last night.
Never lose touch with me again for more than a year or I will whiplash ya with that wet noodle. *grinz*
We have to keep in touch with each other because If something happens to you or me we will need to know where each other is laid to rest. Erg..... not that I have plans for that, but I would feel terrible if I didn't know.
Psst... I am always thinking way to far ahead, and am infatuated with never dying. Its one of those huge fears of mine because life is so darn good.
If you ever need to find me, my families last name is "David" in the nunica area. They will always forward the letter if we lose touch. There is also some in muskegon area.
"David" is not a hard name to remember since it is a first and a last name. Erg... don't forget or I'll whip you.
You look like you are taking better care of yourself than the last time I seen you..... Probally getting enough sleep now that you arn't up late working at Domino's....LOL
Love always
Your girl;
Nicole (me)
That guy at Papa John's, I think you mentioned his name to me before (Parker) but I don't recall knowing anyone from that name. I'd have to see a face. I think you told me that he said that he knew me.
Yeah I think I did mention his name to you before. He went on to work for the Apple Avenue Domino's store. His wife has twins too!
You know what, I totally forgot about you being bisexual Nicole. DUH! 50 lashes with a wet noodle on me LOL. Yup, the gay life can be a hard life to lead. You ALMOST have to live someplace like San Diego or some place like that where it is more widely accepted, or a gay community near by. It could just be Muskegon too. It just seems that everybody is so uptight here, and caught in their own little world and don't want to let new people in.
Well right now frankley I am caught up in my own little world and don't want to let new people in as well. I am just tired of failing I guess. I understand what you mean about being in another area. Someone just told me about these wonderful 'other' places in the world that I never knew existed. Erg I mean I never knew that it would be more accepted and easier to find someone as well.
There was one other time I was trying to look you up. Dan (Domino's) was telling me once that he was talking to you online. Some kind of club he found. He told me to try AOL keyword: Muskegon Clubs or something like that. I did the keyword search a couple times, but never found it. And needles to say I had lost your e-mail addresses you gave me. That was around the time you were telling me you had a web page.
Thats funny because around that time I shut down my first website and now I have a new Michigan website. It is registered for three more years and I am probally going to re register it because it is really doing well. I also work on webpages for people and if you do happen to go there you will find SO much information about me out.... not that you don't already know.... but just lots of stuff that has been going on and very creative things on there that I have written. Like I have a whole section dedicated to love letters. Sorry to say I wasn't thinking of you when I wrote them *grinz*. If you get bored sometime its miperson.com I also have another occupation I am not sure I want to tell you about because I am sure that you will laugh your ass off if you found out. Uhmmm I guess I can't hide it if you figure it out because it is on the webpage lol.
Not really too much to say about my life. Been living at home and taking care of my mother. She's had a triple bypass, stroke, etc, etc. Seems this past year she has been in and out of hospitals about 3 or 4 different occasions. Even back surgery, which only relieved her back for about 2 months.
Lots of times when you have someone who has a stroke and also heart problems their backs hurt even worse than before they had the problems. I am sure that even though it relieved the pain for 2 months only it is probally better off than it was. I don't mean to get you down by saying this Mike, but I have to say it anyways because I have a big mouth. Usually when people have those kinds of surguries it prolongs their lives but they never really do get better. I hope that your mom doesn't fall worse anytime soon but it sounds like you are beginning or are in the middle of a long road with her health problems. For example, things seem to get better for a while, then they get worse for a moment. Just when you think she is getting better again something else happens. Just hang in there!! Anything you need just let me know and I will be there for you. I really meant what I said about helping you take care of your mom if you need it. I really love working with people and would give that to any person I know because I love doing the job so much. I don't even care about the changing of breifs, or showers. I just like to know that I myself can help releave the burden and make someone feel at ease a little bit longer in their lives. I am not patting myself on the back by doing this. I just really life the feeling I get knowing that I am helping someone else. Its really not about money, or even about being able to say I am a great person. It is more about how I feel about myself for helping someone else out. I love to do it because I am sooooo full of knowledge. In the past 4 years I have taken care of around 170 people and probally about 60 of them during the last years of their lives. I really like being able to make someone more comfortable. I like being able to give them a sense of dignity. This is going to sound insaine, but when my grandmother was in the last few months of her life and was bed ridden it made me feel proud to be able to bathe her. It wasn't a job. It was something I wanted to do to make her feel more comfortable. I felt honored when she allowed me to do this. I felt honored also because I knew that she was getting the best care. I think that is what it is all about. When you love someone and care for them that much you want them to recieve the best care. I know that when I care for someone they are recieving the best care because I try my darndest to think of everything. I am leary of nursing homes because I worked in one in the past. The people that live in nursing homes are often treated as if they were cattle. They are put down for about 12 hours a day in bed and sometimes longer. Lots of times they are ignored or put off. I would never want to see that happen to your mother. If she is your mother, then she must be a great woman.
One thing you never did mention in your letter is how Rick is doing. Are you still talking to him? I just wondered. If you are talking to him still tell him I said howdy *grinz*
Every year for all these years I have put a christmas ornament on my tree with your name on it. I made it years ago. Needless to say I think last year it got broken by the twins. I am going to make new names again and put them on the tree. The names are for the people that mean the most to me in my life.
You made an impression on me because you were a hard working, honest man. You were funny and we had alot of fun times.
Speaking of work, I still have your name tag *laughs*
Well I had alot more to tell you but I will save it for later because I am really tired from working 3rd shift last night.
Never lose touch with me again for more than a year or I will whiplash ya with that wet noodle. *grinz*
We have to keep in touch with each other because If something happens to you or me we will need to know where each other is laid to rest. Erg..... not that I have plans for that, but I would feel terrible if I didn't know.
Psst... I am always thinking way to far ahead, and am infatuated with never dying. Its one of those huge fears of mine because life is so darn good.
If you ever need to find me, my families last name is "David" in the nunica area. They will always forward the letter if we lose touch. There is also some in muskegon area.
"David" is not a hard name to remember since it is a first and a last name. Erg... don't forget or I'll whip you.
You look like you are taking better care of yourself than the last time I seen you..... Probally getting enough sleep now that you arn't up late working at Domino's....LOL
Love always
Your girl;
Nicole (me)