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Post by Nicole on Sept 26, 2023 10:49:25 GMT -5
I feel like I went from someone super important to someone on the shelf for no reason or atleast not one that I understand but that happened in the flicker of a light switch the day that my eyes were tired from being up to long and now after 2 small petty arguments I really am a fish out of water and don't know what I did or if I should be preserving myself at all because it seems he thinks I want control when all I ever really wanted was the same attention that I'd always gotten and now I feel awkward when talking about my feelings and hoping that no more arguments occur. Lately I've been feeling super alone in this world and really that I do t know exactly where to turn with my thoughts especially now that I am very frustrated and that even sexually I feel like I cant express myself. Its a very strange feeling but I can't really talk about it because I want peace. I have so many unanswered questions that I really feel lost and I hope it repairs eventually. The other day I had to call an old friend just to remove my brain from the subject just to feel normal and no we didn't discuss this either. I know this that I love him but I also don't need toxic and its really alarming me. I feel like he is pushing me away and I am.mentally tired. I want to tell him not to push me away but I already mentioned it and it feels like it doesn't do anything. AGAIN is this real?
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