Post by Cole on May 31, 2021 18:33:14 GMT -5
I was hurting so badly in those months when I met him. I felt the despiration to be treated like a normal human being after having been in a relationship with someone who treated me so bad. I was so scared that I almost ran the very day that I met him. Within a week I wanted to just bolt. Things went very well for 8 weeks and then he started talking to someone. And we went through a series of him bringing up other women talking about other women talking to other women and not paying much attention to me at all. The sex began to die and we stopped having it so often. All I wanted was to know what was going on and what are you doing today and can we have plans together and stuff like that but sometimes I couldn't get an answer. I felt like I was going insane and where was this boyfriend that he promised he was. Where was this good person that he said he was in the beginning when all of us started? Then as we went further down the road I found out that he was flirting with another lady that he said was his sister but he doesn't have any sisters. Later I find him flirting with another girl and he still hasn't to this day stop talking to his ex-girlfriends. I don't expect him to stop talking to everyone but when you blatantly lie to me about it I can't take it. I feel like the whole relationship was a lie and even though he says he loves me I don't believe that either. Lost my temper for about 150th time for this I cannot handle men who lied to me and go out with other women and hurt me and talk about that and try to be manipulative and I just don't know why I can't meet someone who will just love me. This is a terrible curse and no matter what I give it's never enough. All I ever wanted in my life was a stable man who could be my husband who was not trying to go out with other females and all I keep getting is junk. Then going to wonder why I'm upset. You never apologize you never hurt my feelings? You find Joy when I'm upset.