Post by Cole on Mar 21, 2019 16:01:18 GMT -5
He took it all in a swooping motion in order to try to become like me because he is nothing
but empty inside. Nothing but a user of other people's feelings because he has none of his own.
You can't go back and undo what you did, unsay what you said and you can't change the things
that you put me through. I gave it my all and my best effort which was never ever good enough for him.
He asked simply for someone to love him and when I did he decided to take everything from me and throw
me and it in the trash.
As am starting to detach now and am mostly detached as a result of the pain and trauma that he has put me through
I am finding it difficult to love. To give trust to complete strangers or people that I come into contact with.
I am no longer able to extend love even though I may feel the feelings of high regard for someone whom
I would have otherwise been interested in in the past.
My heart is not broken though, it is dead. I feel no pain and I have no sorrow. It is black and I don't know when or
if that will ever change. It is as if I am going through the motions of feelings and I want to feel but I cannot.
This is the result of my third and final failed marriage attempt because I am gullible and believe that all people have
good inside of them. They do not.
I get caught off guard because I believe people's lies. Now I just simply don't believe a word they say as if their nonsense of
conversation can't be trusted to begin with and I don't even bat an eye for a second to even try to believe
them. I just go through the motions.
Maybe faking it until you make it works for some people but I am having an awful time of it. I just remember when I was a real
feeling and loving person and he has taken it all from me.
There is no love inside of me for anyone introduced to me and I want the love so badly. I really want to be loved and to give love and to trust
someone with all of my heart.
So I thank him, for fucking up my head.
but empty inside. Nothing but a user of other people's feelings because he has none of his own.
You can't go back and undo what you did, unsay what you said and you can't change the things
that you put me through. I gave it my all and my best effort which was never ever good enough for him.
He asked simply for someone to love him and when I did he decided to take everything from me and throw
me and it in the trash.
As am starting to detach now and am mostly detached as a result of the pain and trauma that he has put me through
I am finding it difficult to love. To give trust to complete strangers or people that I come into contact with.
I am no longer able to extend love even though I may feel the feelings of high regard for someone whom
I would have otherwise been interested in in the past.
My heart is not broken though, it is dead. I feel no pain and I have no sorrow. It is black and I don't know when or
if that will ever change. It is as if I am going through the motions of feelings and I want to feel but I cannot.
This is the result of my third and final failed marriage attempt because I am gullible and believe that all people have
good inside of them. They do not.
I get caught off guard because I believe people's lies. Now I just simply don't believe a word they say as if their nonsense of
conversation can't be trusted to begin with and I don't even bat an eye for a second to even try to believe
them. I just go through the motions.
Maybe faking it until you make it works for some people but I am having an awful time of it. I just remember when I was a real
feeling and loving person and he has taken it all from me.
There is no love inside of me for anyone introduced to me and I want the love so badly. I really want to be loved and to give love and to trust
someone with all of my heart.
So I thank him, for fucking up my head.