Post by Nicole on Sept 11, 2012 9:23:12 GMT -5
August 5 2009
Nicole Feminazi Hudson
hi
I just wanted to tell you that things are really bad here at the moment. Douglas threw me out the other night and I had to go sleep at your mothers. Mainly because I did not want him thinking I was out sleeping around. I don't really want to talk about it but I do think that it is high time that I just go back to America and get on with my life. I don't need to be with someone that thinks he can just chuck me out and I had no where to go.I don't want to leave but if I do then perhaps you and your family can forgive me sometime. I don't want the citizenship. I just wanted to be with Douglas but he really treats me like dirt and to be honest with you I pay for all of the mooring fees and electricity and boat licencing fees and he does not pay for that much. Makes so much more money than I do and then he tells me I should be gratefu and also asks me for even more moneyl. I tried to talk to your mother but she doesn't listen I think that she thinks that nothing is wrong with Douglas but that is not true. No one listens to me and I have no one to go to here for support really. I just want to go home to be honest with you. I tried to tell Douglas that he should make things right but instead he just keeps aggrivating me and blaming me.
So right now I am applying for jobs back home and I hope that I can get one. I don't know what to do if I don't. I also don't know how I will ever be able to have a relationship again after him. Anyways please do not discuss this because I have alot of dignity. I just thought that you were a friend regardless.
I feel abit lost and I don't know what to do with m yself or who I can turn to.
August 6 2009
... Thanks I just needed someone to talk to because I feel very alone. I am going home at the end of this month and then I will decide what I want to do with myself. I think that it is not a good situation and to be honest with you I don't ever want to be with anyone ever again.
I've been asking Douglas to stop shouting at me and treating me like this for a long time but it just gets worse and worse. Now he is telling people that I won't let him have friends... er? Its a long story but its not because I don't want him to have friends.. its because he acts like a social butterfly towards everyone else and treats them all very nicely, but when he comes home to me he treats me like I am the lowest form of life.
I have to be honest with you I love him but I just don't think that this is going to work out.
September 15 2010
Please help me. Douglas has admitted to having an affair with a friend of mine. I am so concerned.
It is hurting me emotionally very badly because I recently asked him to start over and that we both get re married. That we start new and that I love him still. He had agreed to come to the USA and now that he has found someone for a sexual relationship he has changed his mind. HE is also throwing accusations around that I have been looking for men, however I have not accepted one single offer ever.
I want Douglas to come here and be my husband. I have loved him for 7 years. I have gone through great lengths to be with him. I have suffered alot for him and I have stood by him even when he has done some very bad things to me.
I do not want to file for a divorce and recently asked him to come to the usa and I would support him for a spouse visa. I have been in the truck and working so hard every day hoping that my husband would come home. I have not seen my kids but only once for 4 hours in the last 2 months because I have been doing this training and I wanted him to come here. I work or am on call 24 hours a day 7 days a week and this has gone on since I have been in America. I just want my husband to come home and be with me.
I love my husband and I want to be with him. I have always loved him.
I really do love him.
I have been crying for days. I am hurt and sad and I don't knwow what to do.
God Bless
Nicole
Nicole Feminazi Hudson
hi
I just wanted to tell you that things are really bad here at the moment. Douglas threw me out the other night and I had to go sleep at your mothers. Mainly because I did not want him thinking I was out sleeping around. I don't really want to talk about it but I do think that it is high time that I just go back to America and get on with my life. I don't need to be with someone that thinks he can just chuck me out and I had no where to go.I don't want to leave but if I do then perhaps you and your family can forgive me sometime. I don't want the citizenship. I just wanted to be with Douglas but he really treats me like dirt and to be honest with you I pay for all of the mooring fees and electricity and boat licencing fees and he does not pay for that much. Makes so much more money than I do and then he tells me I should be gratefu and also asks me for even more moneyl. I tried to talk to your mother but she doesn't listen I think that she thinks that nothing is wrong with Douglas but that is not true. No one listens to me and I have no one to go to here for support really. I just want to go home to be honest with you. I tried to tell Douglas that he should make things right but instead he just keeps aggrivating me and blaming me.
So right now I am applying for jobs back home and I hope that I can get one. I don't know what to do if I don't. I also don't know how I will ever be able to have a relationship again after him. Anyways please do not discuss this because I have alot of dignity. I just thought that you were a friend regardless.
I feel abit lost and I don't know what to do with m yself or who I can turn to.
August 6 2009
... Thanks I just needed someone to talk to because I feel very alone. I am going home at the end of this month and then I will decide what I want to do with myself. I think that it is not a good situation and to be honest with you I don't ever want to be with anyone ever again.
I've been asking Douglas to stop shouting at me and treating me like this for a long time but it just gets worse and worse. Now he is telling people that I won't let him have friends... er? Its a long story but its not because I don't want him to have friends.. its because he acts like a social butterfly towards everyone else and treats them all very nicely, but when he comes home to me he treats me like I am the lowest form of life.
I have to be honest with you I love him but I just don't think that this is going to work out.
September 15 2010
Please help me. Douglas has admitted to having an affair with a friend of mine. I am so concerned.
It is hurting me emotionally very badly because I recently asked him to start over and that we both get re married. That we start new and that I love him still. He had agreed to come to the USA and now that he has found someone for a sexual relationship he has changed his mind. HE is also throwing accusations around that I have been looking for men, however I have not accepted one single offer ever.
I want Douglas to come here and be my husband. I have loved him for 7 years. I have gone through great lengths to be with him. I have suffered alot for him and I have stood by him even when he has done some very bad things to me.
I do not want to file for a divorce and recently asked him to come to the usa and I would support him for a spouse visa. I have been in the truck and working so hard every day hoping that my husband would come home. I have not seen my kids but only once for 4 hours in the last 2 months because I have been doing this training and I wanted him to come here. I work or am on call 24 hours a day 7 days a week and this has gone on since I have been in America. I just want my husband to come home and be with me.
I love my husband and I want to be with him. I have always loved him.
I really do love him.
I have been crying for days. I am hurt and sad and I don't knwow what to do.
God Bless
Nicole