Post by Nicole on Jun 2, 2011 9:16:41 GMT -5
Hello my darling how are you? I am doing good. I am still on the night shift and will have a day off tomorrow night but will be off only one day and will be back in for two more after that. Atleast the one day is appreciated as I need the money badly.
I have been worried that you will no longer be interested in getting to know me because i have been slow on responding during the holiday season but it is only because i am working and also spent some time with a friend of mine and her mother.
I was in the car with the mother last night as she was taking me to work and she said that I should try being alone its refreshing and that you don't need to be with someone ... (she's a nun)... I thought..... I need to get laid sometime geez!
I don't just go out and get with anyone I usually try to find a long term partner. I have only been with two men in the last twenty years. Sometimes being alone does appeal to me but i am not sure how I am supposed to do everything by myself all of the time..
I hope that you are well and you had a good holiday.
Have a nice day my darling,
Nicole
Hey Nicole,all is well here and hope it is all good for you!! I wish you a very merry holiday! Don't worry, you can call any time, no matter, I don't have anybody to worry about,so all is good! I hope you had a good day and there weren't to many problems, it has been a very long day for me also, and i'm going to end this now, but will be looking forward to talking soon, Love Dave
Dear Dave
How are you? I am doing well but Christmas is over now. I am going to my girlfriends house in the morning and hope that I can sleep there and do not feel to bored without the computer.
I hope that you had a lovely christmas and hope that if I am not sleeping to much that I can phone you soon but I don't want to upset my friend Erika. Her dad made us a lovely christmas dinner but he was swearing to much during the whole thing. He was however very friendly and he was just trying to be funny at the time.
I am not sure if it were you that left me a message on my phone but if it were I have not checked it yet as I have been working and out all day with the friend at her family's house. I've met her brother and parents and found out that her mother is a nun, which is weird.
Anyways I better go
Miss hearing from you my darling
Love
Cole
Hey there, that is cute. my first x has remarried 6 times, she still cheats. I hope you make it to work ok, we have freezing rain right now! That would be cool (not that i hope anyone dies) but at least you might be set up with a place. I'd walk the beach with you, hold you and enjoy the sunset anytime. Feel free to call me anytime also, and don't be surprised if your phone rings. Thats very good of you to help your brother out. I paid my mothers house off so she had no worries, i made a agreement with her that i would offer it to my younger brother after she passed, well she left it to him in her will, long story short , i just gave up on getting anything out of him and gave it to him and his wife! Until later, Have a Great night at work and don't worry you can call me anytime too! Love Dave
Hahahaha that was really great... I am going to be leaving for work soon and found myself struggling to want to get dressed in this freezing cold weather... that said I will either walk or bike to work and it will be cold outside.
I just had the most unusual type of christmas present ever... and I don't know why I consider it a blessing.
I was speaking to my neice on the phone and told her that she and I and her mother should move in together when she gets the farm (which is going to be passed on to her when my uncle dies) and that we should all keep it. She said it sounded like a real good idea.
Anyways I was speaking to her and she told me that my first husband just got married again a month ago (they did not tell me) and I seemed to have this relief come over me ... and I also laughed so hard that it hurt my stomach..
You see I laughed so hard because my first husband has so many girlfriends.
When I went home once my daughter had been using his phone so I decided to be nosey and look in his contacts... 14 women on his list... and at the time he was dating the woman that he has just married..
My ex husband ... was and probably still is a ladies man. I feel sorry for the woman. She's a nice lady.. she's going to be living a lie.... and it sad in some respects.
The reason I feel relieved is because that means that some other woman is going to be keeping him company whilst he cheats on her. I am happy atleast that it is not me. I put up with it from him for 15 years. Mainly because I wanted my kids to have a family.
Its not a real family when that happens.
Anyways she's wife number 4 for him.... I just could not help but laugh so hard....
Maybe its wrong I don't know...
Tonight is going to be a real good night at work because it is the night before christmas and the patients will all be "cured" and no one will be slashing their throat ect... because they will have something to look forward to.
Tomorrow they will open their presents with care...
The following day they will start to become upset because christmas is over with and will begin self harming again.
This is the sad part of the lives of sociopaths and personality disorders. They are occupied and have something to look forward to at the moment, but when the moment is done then they go back to the lifestyle that we are trying very hard to help them out of.
Some of them make it, some of them don't. None of them died so far since we opened the unit, but a few times they have come very close.
I've recently seen one released into the community and she got to go home to her family and kids... there are not very many that make it out. I wish and hope that they all will because everyone deserves a life.
Thanks for your phone number I am very happy about that.
I hope that it is not a problem if I phone you.
I am five hours ahead of you so you can call me anytime day or night. It won't bother me becàuse of the hours i do at work..
Recently it has been very difficult to save up money becàuse my brother Tom kicked my brother Ben out in the snow ... and sent him on a bus to the middle of detroit with no place to live.. so i have agreed to pay Bens rent for 3 months in order to make sure he is not out in the snow. At the end of the 3 months I am not going to extend any more becuase i just need to be thinking about coming home.. I don't want to work that hard all the time.
Anyways dear i need to stop typing because i should be getting ready for work...
I hope that I can hear from you.
Would love to know how your voice sounds.
love
Cole
Nicole, i would argue about the ham but since it is Christmas i will give you the benefit of the doubt! We will have to compare sometime! Biking is a bore, but the boy's and i ride in the summer. My oldest is 30,28,25,22, they all have there own thing going on, from first marriage. The two i spend my time with are 15 and 4. They are a hand-full but i wouldn't trade them for anything... About your bike, that shouldn't be a big problem to fix, getting someone to do it in a timely manner however could be.. I don't think i could handle your job, and you should be commended for doing so!
You can write me all day, i wont get tired of it, in fact just the opposite! I may call you sometime and I'll give you my number also. I can't imagine being away from my family during this time of year! I hope you don't work to hard and I'll be looking forward to reading from you again. Here is my number just in case you need someone to talk too. and i will keep yours. Well i'm getting ready to do stuffed mushrooms so i should let you go for now, but i'll be back! Have a GREAT day! Love Dave
Dear Dave
The ham should be cooked by me *snigger* because I have the best glaze and ... ham is my favorite food.. So therefore I should be in the kitchen right now.
The problem with the bike is that its oil seal inside the engine is blown. Its not that old of a bike but it is getting towards its "I need mainenance" period in its life.. Maybe if I can fix it up I should just sell it I don't know.
I have just purchased a bicycle.. I hate bicycle's and I am using that to get to work and I can also take it on the train. Though I can't carry any cargo on it so its annoying me. I have a twenty mile trip to work.
Here is a phone number of mine ***** and you can phone it any time its a local muskegon number that I have set up for the kids to call me. Often times if you get the voicemail that is because I am at work. I work fourteen hour shifts.
Currently I am working with women who try to kill themselves every day. Its a bloody mess.... not joking ...
Its very hard work and it gets old after a while seeing them through this time but I do like the job for... some odd reason.
Tonight I am cooking as well .. a vegetable stir fry and hope that it turns out okay. I eat loads of vegetables because I have found out in 2006 that I had diabetes and have been trying to be more healthy ever since. I have found that eating vegetables can help you with cravings. Sometimes you feel like you could eat the whole world because you are so hungry due to the diabetes. Its hard to cope with at times.
I hope that the amount of time that I write you does not bother you because I can write an aweful lot.
You said that you like going to the beach. It is seventy miles drive from here to the beach and the fact is that I have been very depressed about it because I have grown up in Grand Haven Michigan most of my life only one mile from the beach and that is where I have spent the summers at.
I would love to meet someone that I can walk down the beach with several times a week and hold in my arms.... though I can get a bit bored if not working.
I am suprised that you have not spoken to many people online. I just would feel disapointed if there was one day.. nothing coming through.
I hope that you have a nice dinner as I am working the night shift now for three days.
If you don't hear from me right away tomorrow it is because I am spending time with my friend Erica after work she is my only friend here and she knew I would be alone at Christmas so she invited me to her dads house for dinner..
Then after that I will go to work for the night shift again and sleep on the following day but I will try to get with you tomorrow or the morning after christmas before sleeping. Its nothing personal but I do work 14 hour shifts... sorry ... I am however checking my email just about every day so I will be able to write you back.
How old are your kids?
I guess I can not think of much more to say but I hope that you are well,
Love
Nicole
Well Nicole, i am cooking a ham(with top secret glazing) and all the fixings. I would gladly let you in the kitchen to help out, hahaha.. Killer tat, i like it! You're right, there are abuncha people all fighting over the same jobs and it won't be any better for awhile. It's cold here today also, stiff east wind blowing like crazy. Nice bike by the way. What seems to be the problem with it? I have been divorced for almost four yrs. now and still have a hard time without the kids but it gets a little easier the more time that goes by! As for meeting up with someone (lol) you are one of the first REAL people i have talked to threw that posting, but, if i do i will tell you! I do hope you make it home and you let me know when you do. I'd like to see your FIRE! Well i'll tell ya what, i'm a cookin so i'll let you go for now, but, if you feel like writing again, i will be checkin in. so until then, have a great day! Love Dave
Dear Dave
What you cookin?
I think we would have to fight for the kitchen if I came around hahaha!
I have sent some photos of mine including one of myself with my grandad in Germany.
I hope that you like them.
I hope that the photo of my tattoo does not scare you. You only live once and I'm getting to old to worry about what others think..
I say what I mean and I mean what I say and when it is important that is what is important to me..
I'm not wishy washy and I do not sit on the fence. If you ask me a question you will get the answer that I really believe it is. Atleast I am realiable though.
Today it is very cold in england and I want to scream because the ice is really getting on my nerves.
My motorcycle is broken and you can't get these people to fix it within a few days. What is the point in making an appointment when they are just going to have it for three weeks and work on it whenever they feel like?
Most of the places said they would not work on it because it is an import..... I think ... right everything is an import now days, but they still want to be idiotic for some reason.
You say there are alot of jobs in mental health there but the reality is that there are alot of people who are very poor and they have all applied as well for the same job. Whilst I am sure I could find something I don't think that the pay is well enough to run your own house. I have tried this before in the past when I went through divorce and I went to apply for an apartment and they would not even let me apply because they said I did not make enough money..
I was thinking that it would be nice to put some money aside for a nice motorhome so that when i get back home i can atleast have something.
I really appreciate your letters they are very nice and I love hearing from you.
It is sad that your kids will not be with you on christmas eve but I know how that is.
Please let me know if you meet anyone else and get serious as I will carry on and keep on trucking..
I just don't want to be told nothing and have nothing from you one day. I hate that.
Otherwise ... I will also be home in june I think and then I plan to take the kids camping and start a big fire hah... yes i do plan to start a big fire..
My family have a farm and we like to camp there as well.
Love
Nicole
Hello Nicole, it's good to hear from you. Hopefully all will go well with you obtaining your passport. February is still a ways off, but that signals the warmer weather. Shelby is just 30 mins. north of muskegon just off the highway. Anyway, i am very laid back, i try not to let things that i cannot change bother me, it just makes more stress. Family is what matters the most, i have only started looking to build a relationship in the last couple weeks. My mother was very ill and after my divorce i spent alot of time with her trying to make her final days enjoyable.. She passed away in late June and it took awhile to get things settled down. That is when i decided to put up the posting. I have not dated for many years and am not into the bar thing, so! I probably don't have to tell you the field of work you are in is always in demand, especially now days! I truly hope all works out with your situation and you can come home. If you would like, we can stay in touch and when you do get here, we will meet up! Now, i do have a photo or two (you should find this funny) but, i am on my son's computer, it's a MAC and i cannot for the life of me figure out how to attach the dumb thing. I will be learning more about this while mine is being repaired and send one to you very soon. Well it's Christmas eve, and my kids have to go to their mother's house this evening, so it's the big day today. I'm going too cook my butt off. I am Wishing you a very merry Christmas and hope to hear from you soon! love Dave
Dear Dave
I am very glad to hear from you and yes I know Shelby but I can not remember how to get there as I have only been three times in my life. I do not know when I will be home to visit as I am waiting for the government to send me back my passport. I can only hope and pray that it will be in february when I get some time off.
I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that I am easy to get on with because I am just like every other woman. If you give me a reason to be jelous then I will be jelous if you give me a reason to be upset then I will be upset. Which is how most women I suspect are one way or the other.
I don't lie to people because I have no reason to.. I have a bad memory and I could not keep track of a lie even if I wanted to. I am a good cook and a good mother. I do not have my children with me but I speak to them often.
Family means alot to me and I would like to come home because that is where my family is.. I have not figured out how I am going to come home because at the moment I do not understand how it is that our econemy can be so bad that one could not have a job and a small apartment on their own just because there are no jobs ect..
So I am here really only because I am working.. I came here for other reasons which are hard for me to discuss and things have not worked out as they are. I have been seperated since August and have thought only about going home but I have no idea how I am going to get there at the moment..
Every time I come back to Michigan it gets harder and harder to leave Michigan. I want to live there again but I am also one person that feels that I need to be living and supporting myself and that is why I have not come home yet. I do not know how I am supposed to support myself in that econemy when other people are going to college to become cashiers...... yes i am not joking about that... the jobs we once were able to get by walking into the place are now being doled out to people who have went to school. Work experiance means nothing now days even though i have worked in mental health for fifteen years.
I'd love to get a nice little business of my own going on and just work it out that way but i don't see that happeneing either because i have never had anything in my entire life.... though I am still happy somehow.
It was nice to hear that you have ten acres. Someday when I come home I want to be able to buy some land and live off of it. Though I don't know how feasable that is.
I love to camp and fish and do alot of walking as it is but there are not as many fish here as there are in michigan. I could sit outside all day waiting for the fish to bite. My children also love to go fishing and we find it very fun.
I love to start big fires ...... not little ones hehehe
Do you have a picture?
Love
Nicole
Hello Nicole, My Name is Dave and it is very nice to meet you! Since you are from the area, you are familiar with Shelby.. You are right, there is not much going on with employment right now, but in the near future things should improve. As for never meeting a man that doesn't cheat, you just did. I am 49 and have been divorced for four years. My x-wife was the cheater, i don't hold grudges and now she lives a couple miles from me. It gives me more time to spend with my children and that makes me happy. About your dilemma, are you currently working? What line of employment are your interested in if at all? How long have you been away? I own my home with ten acres , we have a couple of beef cows and some yard-birds (chickens). I am retired and enjoy spending days at the beach and evenings around the Bonn-fire. We are into camping, canoeing and such.. Well if you would like to, i would enjoy talking with you more. Please feel free to e-mail me and lets see where we go! Until then, it has been a pleasure. Dave